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Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?

Words mean different things for different folks.  So do I ‘play’  in my daily life?

I have what I call  ‘ time out’ each day when I set aside a short space in time for myself- just me! No noise no phones no people asking why? Just me time. Do I  play.. I do what I please..

My favourite activity in this so-called play time or me time is spent relaxing with a writing implement and something to make my mark on. For as long as I can remember I’ve always had this little space in my day where I make little doodle drawings on paper.

It is not about what I create but that I’ve been able to put a boundary between me and whatever was happening in the real world.

I was born with a few functioning issues and grew up with a parent who instilled in me from a very young age that I was different..I was slow to learn..I was not as smart or clever as my sisters!

So escapism became realism for me. A pretend world where I could become ‘ me myself I’ and no one would take my little space away from me.   I was extremely shy because of my appearance, people judge one on their appearance on the outside not what is on the inside of that person.

I thought it would change when  I went to school but no people pushed me about. Called me names, laughed at my inadequacy.  And the teachers told me I wasn’t as good or as clever or smart like my sisters.

  Can you see a pattern developing here. Where does one skinny 6 year old turn too.? Do they turn into a rough n tumble person and beat those nasty name calling people up or do they hide  beheld within their own shadow. Sadly I guess I chose the last one.. 

Hence I developed my own little world and got creative in my own little world. This was my play time.