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Describe a phase in life that was difficult to say goodbye

One never knows what lies ahead but to have contact with someone… your own flesh and blood.. that you have never seen or heard from for 25 years?? Emotions run deep..

It is difficult to write about, but I found myself pregnant/ unmarried/ cast out by my family

I chose to have the child adopted,  as I had no visible means to support the child and I wanted it to grow up in a family that showed snd gave love to the child as I only felt felt the bullying snd abuse from some of my family members towards me during my years with them.

The area I lived in at that time treated unmarried girls harshly.

One had no access to the baby after it was born, and the authorities said it was better for the mother to be able to move on in life.. if they knew nothing of the birth or held the child or knew any details..( size, boy or girl?)

I was fortunate that a friend told me he was blond hair blue-eyed 7 lb  baby boy.

Twenty-five years later, he found me through an advertisement in a country wide magazine.. and I thought we would have the rest of our lives together.. but he told me quite a few times I wasn’t the type of Mother he was expecting??

The relationship is totally broken now.  My heart will always be open for him and a relationship would be on his terms..but to him the door is firmly closed.

I’ve moved on, but like other things in my life, I’ve had to accept and forgive..

I had no other children, but I know some folk who looked upon me like their foster mum.

I’ve had opportunities through other people that I wouldn’t have thought possible, but it’s just something I’ve dealt with over the years.

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