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What are your future travel plans?

I have a desire to travel to freedom from the constraints that hold me back. I’ve always had faith, been brought up in a faith, and religiously attended a church every weekend with my parents. I grew up on a cattle/ produce farm where the elements of life..the cold winds..the flooding rains.. the seemingly endless droughts that left the land berift of crops..our cattle dying of starvation, our bank accounts empty- bills left unpaid us children went to bed hungry… for there wasn’t enough sustance to feed all of us.

But we had our faith… and as our bequeathed amount of money clattered onto the plate at church- given because the church leader said we needed to support the Church I always felt the heavy sigh of our mother as she resented the fact we could have used the money to replenish wanting things at home but faith would provide for the givers of the church.

The years rolled on and as I grew I let go of my faith and followed a path that led me to sin and disobedience   I grew tired of waiting for the promises of God but all too soon  I was cast out by my parents for the sins that allowed my body to enlarge with an unwed pregnancy which resulted in me being the biological mother of a child. For this secret to stay safe within the confines of the disgruntled family and hidden from prying eyes and gossip of the community the child was adopted out.

Some twenty-five years later I was at my mother’s bedside as she lay dying and she clasped my hand and said Child..mmm.I was in my early 50’s she said. Go back to Church you will find freedom in Church you will find a life that sustains you, your sins will be forgiven.

So there I was, one Sunday morning with my best friend… quite anxious about me… a soiled individual filled with sin entering a space deemed for the holy and those who wanted to be saved. Yearning to hear the words of the leader reading from the  Bible. Yes they were believers and here I was a ‘sinner’…unsure of what lay ahead.

I was shivering in anticipation of what effect the Lord’s words would have on me. And the leader said we will read this passage from the book of  Isaiah  together

Forget the former things;
    do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland…..

A stirring sensation was developing inside of me ..it felt like a spin cycle on the washing machine..the years of sin were thrust and stripped of my body I rushed forward to the ‘ mercy seat’ giving myself to Jesus..hands were placed on my shoulders and I rose, bowed my head at the cross on the wall and shouted I am Free… free from the bands of the sins that held me…testricted me..held me on the wrong paths…free to follow Jesus!! I’m free to let Him be my guide my hope my future.

Free to travel without.the weight of sin..free to learn and experience forgiveness…free to hold my head high and reach out and be a comfort to others who like I had been trapped. Smothered in a path of being.unwanted unloved and judged and held back from the true meaning of Life. Yes, I am free to travel not as I was once but free..yes free of the burdens that bound me…

Freedom to fly..yes I am free to travel…